The Duel - Part 3/3

(Part 1 - Part 2)

III

“Pechorin, let me explain” said Grushnitsky as he casually threw the pistol aside. “I am not the man you saw twelve hours ago.”

Pechorin was finding it difficult to grasp any feeling, let alone why Grushnitsky just spared his life. Grushnitsky proceeded to tell Pechorin about his transformation, its stimulus and how he had a new thirst for life. He was gesticulating excitedly as he recounted the events since their last meeting, but Pechorin couldn’t hear anything. He had stopped listening ever since Grushnitsky dropped his pistol.

He was furious that a cretin like his brother had managed to shatter him with such ease. His brother had, without effort, exposed the demon within him. This was an insult he could not endure. The loathing of his brother was now insurmountable. He couldn’t bear the thought that this man had found salvation, whilst he was damned to endure the monster within himself.

He felt betrayed. He thought he was ‘important’, but realised the world kept the reality of his insignificance insignificant. “Is this who I am doomed to be?” thought Pechorin, staring intently at the ancient pistol in his hand. He knew he had a choice, but knew that choice was made for him long before.

Grushnitsky had now reached the end of his plea. “I have gone through much today, and have decided to dedicate the rest of my life to rectifying my mistakes, the first of which will be our brotherhood. Brother, do you forgive me?” Pechorin looked up from the pistol.

“No.”

Grushnitsky’s lip twitched, and his face twisted into genuine bewilderment when Pechorin lifted his arm and pointed the pistol at him.

“My turn.” said Pechorin, already assuming the stance of a professional marksman.

“Sir I must object! We don’t know if this pistol is the faulty one or not! Sir I beg you to forgive your brother and leave this madness behind!” interjected Fyodor.

“No. He wanted a duel. I am a man of my word and shall give him one”

Grushnitsky, paled seeing his brother so bloodthirsty and obliged. He placed his hands by his side, and looked at Pechorin with those eyes which tormented him so much.

“I’m sorry it came to this” said Grushnitsky. Pechorin stared at his brother down the barrel of the pistol. He realised that regardless of which pistol he was holding, faulty or not, it would not have made a difference to the outcome at all. Grushnitsky's forlornly expression showed that he too understood this.

“Sorry? I wish I was too, Grusha” said Pechorin, as he pulled the trigger.